Chain around your neck

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Veered paths

Tell me, please
where do we go from here
I know where I wanna go
in your arms
guided underneath the shimmering stars in the night sky
only they know everything
that I feel about you
about this life
and the path it makes,
veered around you
away from you
watching you from afar
with distance in my eyes
and no solutions
in the lines that run the palms of my hands
there’s a place out here
where two lonely hearts stay
perpetually needing that warmth
that only one can deliver
the substance that one can give
the completion that one can fulfill
the satisfaction
happiness
all thoughts
contained inside your scented skin
underneith that shirt,
that I want to ease into and touch

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Change is hard

Change is hard
change is dire
maybe we spent what felt like a couple of hours in that room
trying to figure out this lingering sadness, subtle and deep in our bones
from loneliness?
Facing this chill head on
in the silent room at night under the dim lights
with the cat on the edge of an empty bed
by my side

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You look like that, And you got soul…

Dry ice;
like cold arms
sizzling ice on fire
matchstick on a box
your soft kisses
like an unloading avalanche
cascading waterfall like hair
released from a broken wall
unexpected ripping of the skies
a downpour of rain
on an otherwise pleasant
simple day
your eyes that take a glimpse and disappear
that appear again,
those familiar eyes
eyes that stay and linger
like entangled fingers
caught in each others
antics
this time,
this time it’s hooked
smitten, duped
stuck like flies
on some viscid substance
how sweet each bit tastes
take it all in, little sweet bit at a time
we know it all too well and we don’t know
eachother at all
let fingers talk, and tell a story
let the words merely wish to whisper
only the eyes to daze
towards heavens
where our lovers stay
bring down their messages
through kisses, traced below the neck
each fiber much too uneven
fragile, felt
much too familiar
too understood
today

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Losing you

In losing myself, I lose you
fading into the blue skies;
the only place I ever found you anyway
in my childish fantasies
where I was the seeker
and you were the gold
goal
it was always you
it’s always been about you
in clip arts, in stories,
in conversations
in hopes
in my aching heart
it seems like
that will always be the case

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Off into the rainbow

Please believe me,
my hands are soft
and flowers rest on them
like my heart
and these soft words,
almost muted
for you

to you, whom I’ve rejected
and who has rejected me in return
to you, who travels far and wide
looking

I trail behind, distantly so that you don’t see me
knowing that I could love you

like I could love anyone

but you, this time

once again

and next time

trust me when you go to your room alone at night

I wanna be there

inside

and out in the wilderness

our sportive bodies, combined

trust me, I’ve thought all these things
amid my silence
and fake hesitation

fake gamble
but trust the wild
the trees, the buck that walks by the swamp in autumn rain

I’ll be standing there, taking photographs

wondering if you’ll see me, once again in my jacket like in spring-time
in these moments, when I feel the most unguarded

but I’m only seeing you in opposite times
you, just as candy-like and endearing

I could never amount to you

so farewell lover
goodbye summer, once again

’till we meet again

as I watch you from behind
and see you slow down with doubt
for me
underneath the rainbow

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The feeling of love

I believe in you
I believe that you’re real
I can be so stoic sometimes
but when I have emotions, I know that they’re real
I believe in this
I believe that this love is real
it penetrates the deepest of impermeable layers
it runs from head to toe
I’m nonexistent without it
there’s nothing else that matters
no religion, no age, no family, no money
no children, no interests, no talks, no anything
your name, in every inch of my body
just melting, like a fallen ice cream on a hot pavement in summer
rings of rainbow, growing in oil spilled streets
radiating skin, evaporating into thin air
every part of me, breaking apart and immersing with the earth
like an infinite sweet slumber

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