that I don’t have anything meaningful in my life but these paintings
Perpetually bound to be
Throughout my life, I’ve romanticized the animal world; I wished I were a bird so that I could fly and go wherever I wanted I wished I were an ant and thrived in a social and purposeful society I wished I were a pet cat and slept comfortably wherever and whenever I wanted while theContinue reading “Dreams of being other species; shattered”
Tonight, the streets were empty and the lights were too dim and I was feeling that same type of feeling; unknowingly alone and negligibly desperate but I didn’t need a man so much to save me to bring life back into me; give me purpose, make me feel alive. It felt like walking alone inContinue reading “Tonight”
I was so hurt today I searched for a face; My lover had no face today
There are people who are holding it down, day after day. Comfortable in this foreseeable goal; go to sleep on time Work Be a good parent… To be an unstructured person, on the other hand; it wasn’t god’s gift. To be trained to follow rules makes you more structured. You got your rights and yourContinue reading “Unstructured life”
Sleepless, cold nights Three little good things that try to push through To make it all right
Few years ago, I had a couple of white hairs Now, there’s a couple more My life is over.
I’ve been with five hundred guys mentally, but him; he’s been in at least four long term, live-in relationships since then. How can you even move on and do that same thing again, like even after two? And they look like the same exact people too. So strange. Well… actually, never mind.
You’re a bit unfamiliar. It’s a bit exciting, but a hell of a lot more frightening. You have only a few fishes there that somewhat look and behave like you, and a huge number of other fishes that look and behave differently. You try to eat the algae in this pond like the other fish,Continue reading “Foreign fish in a different pond”
How the hell does one do it? Age gracefully. How do you manage to spin and flow as you dive? As you die? How do you make the best out of winter? How do you cook food and manage kids? Slap on a smile around your family? Pretend to listen to your friends? Sacrifice theContinue reading “How the hell does one do it?”
You lied But I understood you when you did
Who am I If I’m unwilling to go all the way To bear all the risks that may come my way To fall hard; to feel lost and confused To lose everything That I work hard to build, day after day All coming crumbling down Like an avalanche with no end It’s what broken dreamsContinue reading “Who are we”
It’s you and me, and a whole bunch of nothing. 20160531
There’s a period of joy, there’s a period of battle, there’s a want for silence. There’s silence; there’s want for joys and even battles. There’s joys, there’s want for battles. There’s battles, there’s want for silence. There’s silence There’s want for joys and even battles for god sakes.
Had tried to calculate approximately how many times humans may have seen the sun through the tree branches Didn’t work out I gave up. Click, delete.
It really sucks that the world is geared up to be cut-throat tomorrow Weights fall down on me thinking about it 😩 Why can’t things be a little more laid back and cheerful for sen’sive souls like us…