Finally free?

Wow. I don’t think
I’m in love
With anybody.






You go through life doing a lot of things;
School, work, relationships,
Vacations, hearing neat speeches,
Learning new skills, that get old
Finding a niche
Forming an opinion
Feeling sad for others; getting annoyed by others
Feeling attacked, developing a case to live
Doing productive stuff while watching the clock tick
When really, there’s nothing that’s truly interesting

… besides maybe flicking a rubber band with the fingers
Or doing the happy baby yoga pose
‘Till it gets old, and then you have to look for other new fun things to do
Like hanging off the side of the bed
Or tracking the movement of the clouds ’till it gets boring, and then you have to move on to do some more unless things… at least useless according to some,
When actually, there’s nothing that’s profound that’s interesting out there. God? Boring. Religion? Blahhh. Job? A waste of time. Relationships? Overrated. Shopping? Wtf…
Licking fingers? Yes!
Monkey talk? Wooo whoo!
Bananas? Uh huhhh!



Hello from the future

It’s two hundred thousand years later
And I think about you
Where you roamed, what you saw, what you felt
How you lived.
I look at my hands, and notice that they’re so pristine. Yours must have been bruised, and maybe the lines that run across your palms were darker.

Hello from the future. We’re stuck in a rut out here. There’s a lot of people who choose to ignore it and are completely happy living mechanical lives because they don’t, for some delusional reason, find it mechanical. But I don’t know why I’m not happy with it. I think it’s a small percentage of us who are not so happy with it. I don’t know what this percentage is, maybe twenty-five? Maybe even less? I have no idea, I haven’t done a methodological statistical analysis on it. But I’m guessing that it’s a few. Did you like the feel of touch way-back-when? Me too. See, we haven’t diverged too far off.

You know, I have a crush on a guy who existed over a hundred years ago. I’ve been reading his writings, and it’s reaffirmed my suspicion that people of the past were, actually, just like us today. Hard to believe since the believer in me used to think that we are so special because there’s a lot of new weird things happening that’s never happened before. But this progress… as they say, always sucked. Even in the past it sucked. But to be clear, it’s not even about what sucked, it’s this rate of sucking; this relative change from the baseline, that sucks, and that is exactly the same as the sucking that’s going on right now. We’re talking about the amazon jungles being destroyed, but we have no idea how WILD New York City must have looked before it got turned into a concrete jungle.

Progress, as they say… it was always coming, it’s still coming they say, as we watch structures getting stacked before us one at a time. This exponential fast rise of… what? We “progress” and forget the trail we leave behind. So where are we headed anyway… building concrete jungles one after another. They worried about conservation in the past as they inhaled coal during the industrial revolution, and some of us still give a damn today. So how are we any different than those who complained about progress, and how are those in support of progress any different than the delusional happy people we meet today who love a nice smooth oiled up car that runs fast and a nice cup of cheap labor coffee from Starbucks? But what can you do? It’s herd mentality. They talked about stupidity in the past, but it’s trickery more than anything. Maybe trickery is stupidity. You go to the grocery store and think your milk comes from there. It’s not your fault anyway. Just go with the flow. Go home, watch a mystery show, eat chicken wings and get fat. Get everything sterilized, get more immunocompromised and survive through life in a much more complicated fashion even though it doesn’t make sense, but then simplicity didn’t make sense, did it? That’s why everything’s so complex and confusing today. Why does it matter anyway, it’s too complicated and irrelevant to me me me now now now! Just go with the flow. Everybody’s doing it. And those who aren’t finding satisfaction from it are the unhappy ones, and they’ll be the ones taking antidepressants anyway. The sweet smell of progress! The wonderful scent of dead skin leather, the funny crunchy taste of popcorn chicken. That goofy animal label, it’s so cute! Let’s sit near the gas run heater, open up our devices and go somewhere else in our minds. Checked out. Lost. Even more confused. Oh happy life.

IDEAL SOCIETY to make us all happier

(Opinions as of 2017/03/31)

Underlying assumptions:
All things organic/inorganic are important for existence in this current state of “reality” in some form or another, and thus are inherently good.

Humans have something to offer to the planet, and the planet has something to offer to humans.

Women are important and bring something to the table, and men are equally important and bring something to the table.

Virtually all mammals, like us, are not lifelong monogamous. Around 80% of present day human societies in this world continue to be polygamous. Lifelong monogamy in a tolerant natural environment is pure fantasy.

–Similarity to other primates
Present day species that most closely resemble humans genetically and behaviorally are chimpanzees, and secondarily, gorillas. Chimps live in promiscuous fusion small group societies where members in the groups change continuously. Gorillas live in a relatively more stable, yet still, polygamous societies.

–Benefit of genetic diversity in offspring
If there comes a time in society where women are granted equal education, respect, and power as men, women shouldn’t be shamed in comparison to men for having children with multiple partners. Although physically, men can produce many kids while women can produce one child at a time in a much more delayed fashion; it’s still beneficial in terms of genetic diversity to have kids from multiple partners for both sexes.

–Having children young
If there comes a time in society where women are granted equal education, respect, and power as men, women shouldn’t be scared to have children young. Both women and men’s bodies are designed to have children early on, and fertility declines later on in life for both sexes.

–Genetic problems with inbreeding
Inbreeding is not common among animals. In the animal world, most offspring leave their birth group after they are mature enough to reproduce themselves. In chimpanzee groups, the female offspring leaves her birth group as soon as she reaches sexual maturity and moves on to associate with another group. Male chimps tend to stay in their original birth groups with other males, while the females tend to be more transient and transfer around. In several human societies consisting of small groups and villages, young women are married off to members of another village or outside their village because their entire village is considered family.

The concept of vast empires, large countries, and massive unions is too grand of a fantasy and ultimately breaks down in the natural world (example: the fall of the Soviet Union into different pieces, the European Union struggles, the United States of America having distinct states with distinct rules and regulations).

As social creatures, we have a need to interact with others. Thus, we are more connected to small groups and communities that are more within our reach in comparison to vast societies where we feel disconnected. Like other primates and our early human ancestors, we function well in small groups and societies– hence the existence of thousands and thousands of various ethnic groups, social groups, and communities throughout the world. In small groups, everyone has roles and duties. Everyone is busy and has a legitimate essential role; a purpose. Once people feel that they have a purpose, they are less depressed and happier.

What happened due time? Like rapid fire, technology in humans advanced much faster than the human biology. We are practically the same people that existed thousands of years ago without the internet. From small groups; where each one of us had a role to stay alive, we’ve now created massive societies where we’re out of touch with where food comes from. We are more confused about who we are, what our purpose is, and why we’re just sitting here eating to stay alive. We get up to do some made up exercise routine in the treadmill to mimic physical exhaustion to feel alive. Sooner or later, automation and robotics will be doing all the essential survival duties that humans need to do; and it can possibly leave us feeling like our existence is becoming more and more meaningless.

According to science, primates originated from Africa then spread outwards. We are all omnivores and can practically eat anything–just like pigs (whom we share a whopping 98% common DNA with). Apes, specifically, have a plant-based diet consisting of whatever that’s edible and available in tropical forests. Eating insects is also a very common source of protein. Many aboriginal and indigenous human societies that still exist continue to eat insects as a normal part of their diet. Killing large mammals for food evolved later on as humans migrated outwards onto harsher climates and developed tools and technology.

Religion, morality, and politics are all subjective and are thus imaginary.

The fact that humans have only been in existence for such a short time in this planet since its formation, and to see how much societies have changed back and forth throughout history—from being liberal to conservative and from being conservative to liberal in terms of their opinions on laws and morality– shows that our biological/fundamental selves has not changed that much in comparison to our beliefs and values. Moral concepts are ALWAYS subject to change, so one should never try to perfect themselves to match these flawed standards that are based on subjective imaginary beliefs of others.

Thus, listen to your gut. Your instinct is the closest to god you’ll ever get.


There are numerous people who believe that death will end their miseries. Here’s a quote that points out an alternative perspective:

Don’t depend on death to liberate you from your imperfections. You are exactly the same after death as you were before. Nothing changes; you only give up the body. If you are a thief or a liar before death, you don’t become an angel merely by dying. Whatever you have made of yourself thus far, so will you be hereafter. And when you reincarnate, you will bring that same nature with you. To change, you have to make the effort. The world is the place to do it.”

-Paramahansa Yogananda