You keep catching me

I know who I love. It’s you; fragile and in pain, lonely, needing to be saved. Your desperation is my awakening. I can’t imagine you a happy boy. So long lost, so strange and foreign. So not you. When you look at me, do you see desperation too? Do see yourself; do you see someone […]

Like rain clouds

Won’t sleep tonight thinking about your soft hair like rain clouds… I understand that things are slow and your heart beats weighed and heavy while I bloom in orange, before you stay quiet, speak to me in silences like you do times are gloomy like the rain, I know this path before us; it’s faux, […]

Ramble to yourself, ramble about lovers

Tonight, there’s no star outside. Just me in my dark room sitting on the floor. I could meditate and do a pose or two. I could stare at the wall in the dark. Or have some pomegranate and cry like I had done nine years ago. That was awesome… actually, it was sort of fun. […]

Falling paper pieces

When it happens the first time, it soars but it’s happened before this feeling of synchrony as we smiled and rode on by but this time it was a bit different making it a first time, again it was the calmness the quietness the substance that leaves you guessing as we split paths and think […]

Spaceship

I open the door and there you are in the center of what feels like a spaceship the door’s creaky and it’s quiet outside and it feels like this place is in motion with it’s constant fanning and somewhat emptiness isn’t it strange how it came to be? It’s sort of a pathetic miracle indeed […]

Massive will 

It’s push and pull The world pushes you away, but you have this massive will Bigger than a series of constellations That tethers you back It’s that will That binds me It’s thicker than anything imaginable It’s stronger than any physical bonds It’s connected to a rope that’s infinitely long No one can see it […]

An a$$ kind of love

Your wannabe interest and my wannabe interest in going out, partying hard, and getting laid was strong enough to bring us together. It’s a bit weird having this type of a mindset for someone who’s commonly seen as a pretty oddly-reserved-for-no-apparent-reason type of person. You were everything that I objectified; dark haired and creamy skinned. […]

Forest, with you

This patch of land preserved for cell phone towers give way to a family of trees and shrubs and the few wild that roam, still I go here sometimes in the crux of my loneliness surrounded by shade, and the peeking of the sun once in a while most of the time, I’m barely existing […]

Mini life goal sort of complete

A mini life goal is sort of complete; I finally had an awkward face to face small talk with an older man who was somewhat into me. Maybe small talks aren’t a big deal if you’re a regular chick who’s aware of the big picture. But for people like me who grew up with big […]