Unstructured life

There are people who are holding it down, day after day.
Comfortable in this foreseeable goal; go to sleep on time
Work
Be a good parent…

To be an unstructured person, on the other hand; it wasn’t god’s gift. To be trained to follow rules makes you more structured. You got your rights and your wrongs aligned. You know what your goals are. You got a job to do.

To be unstructured makes you stand outside of the circle. You’re a hot mess and your life’s a wreck. You can’t hold down on anything. You’re always left guessing, fleeting, lost and such.

Get your act together and do yoga. Eat healthy and contemplate shit in the middle of the night. Stand there and listen, be stoic, but be sappy as hell when the time is right. To be structured and yet so unstructured. It’s a convoluted life for kids who grew up with no rules.

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Where you are

You’re calling for me
In this corner of the cell where there’s nothing
But walls
You’re in my head
You’re wanting my company
I can feel it barely tingle like some current running through a wire in the brain
I stare at the wall when there’s nothing there
But the more I stare, I feel more
Like I’m living fully
And that everything else that I did didn’t matter
What matters is only you
And in me, when I listen, is where you are

 

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Tongue

I’m obsessed
with the way your tongue touches your teeth. I know it’s super weird. But it doesn’t work for me like it works for you. I’m extremely shy about showing my tongue. When I stick it out, it has to be at an angle
lol
but holy god, it’s wild how your flawless tongue is widely exposed for the world to see and to mingle with
anyway I think it’s freaking irresistible
the way your tongue touches your teeth
oooommmggg.
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Waste of an eyesight

Can’t look at anyone else in the eyes. It’s too glazed, clear, and open. Don’t want to look into them when there’s nothing else they have to show. It’s such a waste of an eyesight. Can’t look at anyone else’s, but yours.
Glassy; entwined in something
Distant but so near
The way it changes in sunlight
The way you look at me
…or at some illusion
It’s a lava in there
The sun rises and sets
Volcanoes form and the earth twists and turns
Skies clear and the seas subside
I see it all through that great wide window
I just
Wanna get in there…

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