Off into the rainbow

Please believe me, my hands are soft and flowers rest on them like my heart and these soft words, almost muted for you to you, whom I’ve rejected and who has rejected me in return to you, who travels far and wide looking I trail behind, distantly so that you don’t see me knowing that […]

The feeling of love

I believe in you I believe that you’re real I can be so stoic sometimes but when I have emotions, I know that they’re real I believe in this I believe that this love is real it penetrates the deepest of impermeable layers it runs from head to toe I’m nonexistent without it there’s nothing […]

Empty house

I know you’re there sitting on the front porch of an empty house in this perfection, I’d walk in wrap my arms around you warm lights flicker inside the room in between our close, moving bodies it’s dusk outside the geese are flying south it’s getting empty in this northern town sometimes, we’re the only […]

Found

If I didn’t have a dream about the piercings on your tiny pink nipples over your smoothe, hard chest last night, I wouldn’t have found you. It speaks to the way I feel about you, something distant and particular a particular star in twilight that exists only within my relative distance. It’s this gap between […]

Whatever he is

My lover’s so far away again flashing through a bike ride down lonely lanes, streets, shrubs, paths… The clouds are heavy, and the skies are bleak again I can feel each cell thrive and shrivel in my body I just want to be naked and sprawl on the great green grass; get kissed by the […]

Colors in the city

When the cold weather recedes, the days are bright and the air is flowy and fresh I turn into a majestic peacock dancing for you, dancing to the tune of your love you make me alive, even in my dying days these city walls collapse, and it becomes paradise I can live here, like this, […]

Rat kids

Tonight, my favorite song is ‘Dont stop believing’ by Journey. In the guitar strings is our experience in this dark of the night. Rainy metro city concrete floors, concrete walls. Dark nights, cloudy days, spans of loneliness that lasts months on end. You’ve become an American boy, more than I’ve ever become an American girl. […]

Friendly gestures

Silent eves with the rain drops, beside us no words, just time to kill cradled in your arms save me, I’m a helpless little thing and I trust you; your warm hard body we’re like glue here; there’s no space in between I couldn’t stand it otherwise you let me be so needy, and I […]

You keep catching me

I know who I love. It’s you; fragile and in pain, lonely, needing to be saved. Your desperation is my awakening. I can’t imagine you a happy boy. So long lost, so strange and foreign. So not you. When you look at me, do you see desperation too? Do see yourself; do you see someone […]

Falling paper pieces

When it happens the first time, it soars but it’s happened before this feeling of synchrony as we smiled and rode on by but this time it was a bit different making it a first time, again it was the calmness the quietness the substance that leaves you guessing as we split paths and think […]

Where you are

You’re calling for me In this corner of the cell where there’s nothing But walls You’re in my head You’re wanting my company I can feel it barely tingle like some current running through a wire in the brain I stare at the wall when there’s nothing there But the more I stare, I feel […]

Massive will 

It’s push and pull The world pushes you away, but you have this massive will Bigger than a series of constellations That tethers you back It’s that will That binds me It’s thicker than anything imaginable It’s stronger than any physical bonds It’s connected to a rope that’s infinitely long No one can see it […]

An a$$ kind of love

Your wannabe interest and my wannabe interest in going out, partying hard, and getting laid was strong enough to bring us together. It’s a bit weird having this type of a mindset for someone who’s commonly seen as a pretty oddly-reserved-for-no-apparent-reason type of person. You were everything that I objectified; dark haired and creamy skinned. […]

Forest, with you

This patch of land preserved for cell phone towers give way to a family of trees and shrubs and the few wild that roam, still I go here sometimes in the crux of my loneliness surrounded by shade, and the peeking of the sun once in a while most of the time, I’m barely existing […]