Veered paths

Tell me, please where do we go from here I know where I wanna go in your arms guided underneath the shimmering stars in the night sky only they know everything that I feel about you about this life and the path it makes, veered around you away from you watching you from afar withContinue reading “Veered paths”

Change is hard

Change is hard change is dire maybe we spent what felt like a couple of hours in that room trying to figure out this lingering sadness, subtle and deep in our bones from loneliness? Facing this chill head on in the silent room at night under the dim lights with the cat on the edgeContinue reading “Change is hard”

You look like that, And you got soul…

Dry ice; like cold arms sizzling ice on fire matchstick on a box your soft kisses like an unloading avalanche cascading waterfall like hair released from a broken wall unexpected ripping of the skies a downpour of rain on an otherwise pleasant simple day your eyes that take a glimpse and disappear that appear again,Continue reading “You look like that, And you got soul…”

Losing you

In losing myself, I lose you fading into the blue skies; the only place I ever found you anyway in my childish fantasies where I was the seeker and you were the gold goal it was always you it’s always been about you in clip arts, in stories, in conversations in hopes in my achingContinue reading “Losing you”

Off into the rainbow

Please believe me, my hands are soft and flowers rest on them like my heart and these soft words, almost muted for you to you, whom I’ve rejected and who has rejected me in return to you, who travels far and wide looking I trail behind, distantly so that you don’t see me knowing thatContinue reading “Off into the rainbow”

Empty house

I know you’re there sitting on the front porch of an empty house in this perfection, I’d walk in wrap my arms around you warm lights flicker inside the room in between our close, moving bodies it’s dusk outside the geese are flying south it’s getting empty in this northern town sometimes, we’re the onlyContinue reading “Empty house”

Found

If I didn’t have a dream about the piercings on your tiny pink nipples over your smoothe, hard chest last night, I wouldn’t have found you. It speaks to the way I feel about you, something distant and particular a particular star in twilight that exists only within my relative distance. It’s this gap betweenContinue reading “Found”

You have a nice forehead

I think about my slanted forehead, and I think about a portion of my Neanderthal DNA. Maybe that’s where it came from; back when Neanderthals and Homo sapiens mated, somewhat, possibly. There were many variations of “humans” back then; back when the world was much more diverse. Can you imagine how fun it would haveContinue reading “You have a nice forehead”

Dreams of being other species; shattered

Throughout my life, I’ve romanticized the animal world; I wished I were a bird so that I could fly and go wherever I wanted I wished I were an ant and thrived in a social and purposeful society I wished I were a pet cat and slept comfortably wherever and whenever I wanted while theContinue reading “Dreams of being other species; shattered”

Whatever he is

My lover’s so far away again flashing through a bike ride down lonely lanes, streets, shrubs, paths… The clouds are heavy, and the skies are bleak again I can feel each cell thrive and shrivel in my body I just want to be naked and sprawl on the great green grass; get kissed by theContinue reading “Whatever he is”

Tonight

Tonight, the streets were empty and the lights were too dim and I was feeling that same type of feeling; unknowingly alone and negligibly desperate but I didn’t need a man so much to save me to bring life back into me; give me purpose, make me feel alive. It felt like walking alone inContinue reading “Tonight”

Friendly gestures

Silent eves with the rain drops, beside us no words, just time to kill cradled in your arms save me, I’m a helpless little thing and I trust you; your warm hard body we’re like glue here; there’s no space in between I couldn’t stand it otherwise you let me be so needy, and IContinue reading “Friendly gestures”

Sunny day outside the smoky room

I sit up on the bed amid a sea of skeletons there’s smoke in the air that blurs vision and the sunlight hides behind smelly old curtains I’ve been feeling like a a blank canvas and that was ok; it was better not to feel than to feel the door’s shut from outside, blocking allContinue reading “Sunny day outside the smoky room”

Like rain clouds

Won’t sleep tonight thinking about your soft hair like rain clouds… I understand that things are slow and your heart beats weighed and heavy while I bloom in orange, before you stay quiet, speak to me in silences like you do times are gloomy like the rain, I know this path before us; it’s faux,Continue reading “Like rain clouds”

Ramble to yourself, ramble about lovers

Tonight, there’s no star outside. Just me in my dark room sitting on the floor. I could meditate and do a pose or two. I could stare at the wall in the dark. Or have some pomegranate and cry like I had done nine years ago. That was awesome… actually, it was sort of fun.Continue reading “Ramble to yourself, ramble about lovers”

Massive will 

It’s push and pull The world pushes you away, but you have this massive will Bigger than a series of constellations That tethers you back It’s that will That binds me It’s thicker than anything imaginable It’s stronger than any physical bonds It’s connected to a rope that’s infinitely long No one can see itContinue reading “Massive will “

An a$$ kind of love

Your wannabe interest and my wannabe interest in going out, partying hard, and getting laid was strong enough to bring us together. It’s a bit weird having this type of a mindset for someone who’s commonly seen as a pretty oddly-reserved-for-no-apparent-reason type of person. You were everything that I objectified; dark haired and creamy skinned.Continue reading “An a$$ kind of love”